Since 8th grade, most of my interests have been related to college. From internships to tutoring to Advanced Placement classes, I worked to the bone to achieve my goal of getting into a top university. For years, that was the only thing on my mind, the only thing that mattered to me.
The university application process is finally over. I don’t have many regrets, but there are some things I wish I had done better.
My parents, especially my mother, thought I was pushing myself too hard. She was especially concerned about how unwell I was throughout her high school years. It felt like she was constantly suffering from her sore throat and stuffy nose.
Looking back, I think my parents made the right decision. I’m glad you worked hard at work, but you should have paid more attention to your health. If I had prioritized myself a little more, I might not have developed terrible snacking habits that ruined my skin in second grade. I could also have avoided the years of severe sleep deprivation that contributed to my weakened immune system.
Most of all, I wish I didn’t feel so stressed after submitting my college application. These extra worries had no effect on my admission results. I definitely didn’t need the overthinking, the frantic phone calls to friends, and the pain of not knowing.
Part of me wonders why I only realized this now, after high school. But everything I did, including overexerting myself and adopting unhealthy habits along the way, was expected of me. My friends were encouraged to do the same. However, pushing your limits should not be the only criterion for getting into university.
Now I know I need to find a better balance. I am already studying hard at university. But I try to be more mindful of what I put on my plate and really listen to my body. After all, it is impossible to achieve true success without taking care of yourself.
LaVie Saad (she/her) is a freshman at Stanford University.
Edited by Amber Lee
